So this is what I need to work on this year...calming down! Ive never been too much of a "freak out" person, but ever since Reagan joined the world that's exactly what I am the majority of the time! Example...this afternoon around 4:15pm, RE's daycare called to let me know that she wasn't acting her normal self. She didn't have a temperature but she had fallen asleep while having her bottle, woke up screaming and then would not let the teacher put her down. She was very whiny and kept laying her head down. This may seem normal to some of you for your babies, but NOT Reagan. She is go go go all the time. Even when she is so tired she is still smiling and wanting to play until she collapses. So i "freak out" and go get her immediately. By now its 4:45, I'm holding RE in her classroom while on the phone with our pediatricians office asking if they will PLEASE see her today, even though they are about to close. They are wonderful and tell us to come on and they'll check her out. They knew that Reagan had been sick just a couple weeks ago and i believe they could hear the panic in my voice. I'm a crazy person...i drove all the way across town to their office with my flashers on in case i got pulled for speeding! I kept talking to Reagan the whole way there so she wouldn't fall asleep...i know, I'm insane! We get there and the doctor checks everything that they should. I mean all they had to go on was me..crazy person...saying that she just wasn't acting herself! She checked out fine, had a small temperature, under 100, but that was all. Ears, throat, chest, heart..all perfect. She's still fighting some upper respiratory stuff and with the small fever they said she was probably just exhausted. Oh yea..did I mention my baby wont nap at daycare...hardly ever! So of course she's tired!
Moral of this this story is I need to CALM DOWN! I know this is all normal feelings being a first time Mom, but the thought of Reagan being sick or hurt or anything but perfectly happy breaks my heart and sends me into a tailspin. I also need to stop finding and reading blogs of people who have had something happen to their baby/child. My heart aches so badly for these families but then when anything happens to RE I automatically assume the WORST. I pray so much. I say so many small and big prayers each day. Please God, please protect my baby. Please bless her and keep her safe. Her Mommy and Daddy love her so very much.
From now on, I'm going to do my very best to be a more calm, zen Mama! Anyone else wanna join me?!
XOXO-
Im with you!!!!!
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